The day you undergo your mastectomy is etched onto your soul.
The awakening on the morning of the surgery, the surreal feeling of autopilot because however else would you willingly get to the hospital for this, the crispness of the early morning to be sure arrival is 6.00am as the surgery takes all day, the quiet drive with your partner because no words fit the somber mood, the strange reality of seeing the early morning bustle on the street outside as you are prepped for such brutal surgery, the hurried arrival of the surgeons, the concentration as they mark your body with texta for the incisions they will make, the coolness of the nurses hands as she places the canula, the fear and the inability to speak because the reality of your situation hits hard, the gentle quiet loneliness as you drift off to the pre op drugs that take away your awareness.
It is heart warming to know that in the operating theatre there might be a human who is watching over me and feeling the significance of my situation.
The We Belong Project is "Bridging the gap between health care providers and patients through Empathetic Partnership". This blog piece is incredibly powerful and as a woman who has undergone mastectomy it touches me that when faced with the horror of what I was to endure, there were people in the room who honoured my body and my person.
This is their letter....